I go for mediation today and I am a bit nervous. I have uncontrollable tears this morning. I've been up since three and mediation isn't till nine. Hopefully all will turn out in the most positive way for my son and I.

Ok it is after nine and you are there but wanted to wish you luck and hope that it isnt merely a waste of time for you and things are productive!

During the mediation I was extremely nervous. I live in Sandusky and had to drive an hour away to appear because that is where the case is in Lorain County. Niether steven or myself came to any conclusions right now. I had requested supervised visitation but anyone who was suggested he disagreed with. The mediator suggested a place where they have supervised visitation in Sandusky. I guess we would have to pay to have it done there. When I called this place I set up an appointment for tomorrow to check it out and see what they had to offer. the cost is only five dollars which isn't bad at all. I though the cost would be like daycare expenses or something. Steven says he wants to go to court on it because he doesn't think he should have to drive up here to this place to visit. On top of that he said he couldn't commit to one day every other week to start due to his job. this is what I don't understand. This is what we deal with. Why even file for visitation if you can't commit to it. He has to commit to something. This is why I feel so upset that after eight years now he wants to do this. He doesn't know my son and doesn't want to commit to anything. What happens if an order is submitted and one person doesn't follow it? I figure I am not going to try to terminate his rights as the father because I can't afford it. If he is sincere about seeing his son then he will, right? What kind of agreement should I ask for? How long should the visits be supervised? The mediator told me I could call back in a couple of days with my provisions.